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Weighed myself today…I put on a kilo. 61kg. To some that might be a good weight, for me, it’s like the scales are telling me I weigh 80kg. Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m going to get bad again. I’ve been so good and so happy but, I don’t know. I guess happiness doesn’t last forever when it comes to me. Maybe I’m not supposed to be happy. I hate feeling this way. I’m in an on going war with myself. I can’t pick up a knife or scissors because if I do I’m afraid I might want to cut myself again. I used those tools to do so. So to see them everyday is difficult. Why can’t I be like those other girls? The ones that a thin, have long hair and that are so pretty. Why couldn’t I be like that? Instead I’m this.
Getting bad again for no reason after you’ve been so happy for a long time is literally one of the worst feelings ever